Final Days: Tomorrow and this weekend is last days to sign up

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It’s the last day for Fairy Healing here…

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Last day for Empath Skills class…

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Last day for Rocks and Trees and Fairy Healing the Feminine

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For Animal Mediumship…

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Ten years of so much hard work and sweat and tears, and insights and shifts from students. Did you sign up yet? Join the memories. The catalog is here.

When You Come Last or How to Not Become a Resentful Jerk

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I am exploring an old pattern.

When I was a little fairy, my loving Mom instilled in me to not be “selfish.” These lessons included putting others’ needs first, thinking about others’ feelings (hard not to when you are a raging empath), and watch to make sure you weren’t totally self-involved. We are raised by religion to always be of service and help others. I think I took it too far.

I give too much

My old pattern manifests itself as whiny “what about me?!” It isn’t pretty. It can be more quiet where I just whine and feel pity on myself acting like the girl who didn’t get asked to dance. Or it looks like ugly anger and resentment like, “Why isn’t anyone buying my stuff, dammit! Hello! What are you blind?” Or, those glorious slow seething blow-up moments where I want to pop barbie heads off and cry into my water when I find out only four people on Facebook Business page saw my post I labored on (thank you Facebook for limiting my reach only if I pay you money).

I have had slow moments in the past year where I barely had money for food and yet I was giving out a ton. That’s truly a large red flag I ignored.

I guess it is the “selfish” that tells me I need to keep giving to get, which I guarantee creates one heck of an energetic imbalance, and a giant hole within all areas of my life. In those moments, I think that is the only formula I have, but even in marketing we are told we need to share, share, share. The current trend lately is to give out FREE seminars, FREE everything to get business. (Did we all grow up with the same messed up beliefs?)

The problem is I like to give. I love to nurture and share. I have so much creative energy it feels foreign not to do six creative projects at once and share all of it. But I need to recognize when I am giving too much out and not getting what I need. My fabulous loved one reminded me the other day that I needed to take time out to give to myself. How sad I forgot and needed that reminder. I need to learn how to watch that energy pendulum for myself or I won’t have anything left to give. Examples are flooding my mind. I have this image of a child playing too long in the Arizona sun without enough water and falling over because he forgot to drink. Or my cell phone draining of energy and I can’t use it because it needs to be recharged into the wall. Do I yell at the kid he’s selfish or needy? How about the phone? He needs water to continue and the phone needs the charger. Why wouldn’t I have needs for my business or my personal time to keep going?

I am shifting this!

I guess it is a little like watching my milk intake and being vocally clear what I need. I have no problem with that one. I can tell a waiter, “No cheese please.” I don’t make excuses or whine, or cry about how I don’t matter, I just order. I need to express those limits and healthy boundaries. I need to make limits on how much I can give.

I wonder why it is so hard for me to learn how to ask for what I need and expect I will get it. Why is it so much easier to just take care of others? But the funny thing is, and I will let you know a little secret, I am happiest when my needs are met (like duh). When I am a little selfish  self-taking care of, it is kinda glorious. Having alone time in the forest, being able to write and make movies or design, makes me really, really happy. And when I am really, really happy, I am delightful to be around. I can give a lot and then I inspire those around me. The more I take care of me, the more I have to give. I am like my cell phone at full charge! And when I am neglected and not getting when I need, but still trying, and still giving out, I am, well, let’s admit it, a very cranky and whiny fairy. Yuck.

So there that overly-giving part of me! Do you hear all that?! It’s not selfish, it’s actually making me more helpful to others. It’s necessary! It’s how this thing should work.

Next time I feel empty, and I can’t pay bills, and I am giving and sharing, and I am invisible, and my needs matter the least, I will not whine and cry, it will be a clear sign I forgot to take care of myself. I will have to pry my tight, gripping hands from the sharing pattern for a moment. And a clear energetic symptom that I am on the right track will be I will feel lighter and freer and feel relief. I am lightening my load. I am back on track again.

What do you think? Have you had this experience too?

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Speaking of sharing, last session of Fairy and Empath Online classes start on Friday. I will be teaching creative classes over on my art site, but many classes here will be retired. Did you reserve your spaces? The catalog is here.

Last Call for Classes — Start on Friday

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The final session of Fairy and Empath Online School classes start this Friday! Thinking about taking a class for awhile? Now is the time to take the plunge until they go away. (Yes, sorry, end of summer). Want to heal with fairies? Talk to pets that have passed? Need help for your sensitivity? Head on over to the catalog to sign up!

I need creative class testers!

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I am playing around with a new book and I need students to test drive it! Like designing? Free-writing and using your awesome imagination? Have fun doodling or making up stories? Need a little joy and feel like a kid again this summer to push away the heaviness?

I’ve structured a four-week class to play with the Idea-logy Store and it starts Friday. Won’t you join me? All the information and registration is over on my Studio site here. Hope to see you in class!

NEW! Help! I’m Sensitive Course for Sensitives

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This class, based on my book, Help! I’m Sensitive, offers the Five Main Tools as a Sensitive I’ve learned I desperately needed. Why didn’t we come in with a manual? I had hoped my book would be one for fellow sensitives floating around out there, sharing my journey on what I’ve learned the hard way. So many folks have written me asking for help as they just realized they were sensitives. This class covers your basic tool box you will need. It starts July 24th, registration open now at the Early Bird Rate, and it’s over HERE!